it doesnt rhyme but..

who cares.

you know what, I don't celebrate christmas, but the fact that this was the best Christmas ever can't be denied. Why oh why oh why? My totoro got a friend. Ohhh theres a story behind it also, and I won't tell, it was too funny, lets just call it I'm seeing double #2. <3. Oh guys, its exam week again, be prepared! I've not study yet and yet I feel not really up to it. Inspiration less? Maybe. Malas? Most probably.

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Today, I'm nobody, but someday I'll be somebody

I still remember there was once, about few weeks back, I've told a girl that, I'm a nobody, yeah, it's a fact, but to my amaze, she replied back calmly, "oh you are a somebody, one day I'll show you that, you've never realize it but people around you know you". That made my day, some friend she is. If there's one thing I wished for, I wish to come clean, because lately, it's been a nerve breaking day of my life. Lets end that. All of the trouble worth, its not worth it to do research of how to change past, things happen for a reason.

Ever heard of the saying, friends in need are friends indeed. Thats true, but I've never labeled my friends before (not that much *touchy* ) , good friends I meant. Ever wanted stuff that is impossible to forget, yet regret later when it became rather impossible to obtain without giving something up?

Humankind cannot gain anything without first giving something in return. To obtain, something of equal value must be lost. That is alchemy's first law of Equivalent Exchange.

Thats true, all the things in the world are binded by laws, without laws, things might go chaotic ( not chaotic hellraiser..) . Some laws might not be applicable to others, like Yuwan said, but theres no way too tell. Luck also play role in everything, life is all about probability ( no pun intended ) , statistic is just a piece of information which you can live without sometimes. Some day, you might find confused souls wandering around looking for answer, someday, you might be one of the soul. Corny as it sounds, don't regret later on. Be a good friend, and try to help others in need. Who knows, one day, you might need their help also?

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I hope you regret what you said to me earlier.

Exam is coming. Sigh.

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Oh my god, what a day. Tiring, but somehow inspiring, *if you know what i meant ;P*. I really satisfied though since my application was accepted. The real reason I wrote this is to tell how dissatisfied I was with the service they gave that day. You know, my 'angka giliran' was 1515, and the current number was 1027 and it was like.. 10:15am at that time. They only call me at 5.30pm. I waited for 7 hours, even skipped my class. Thank god the lecturer understood our problem that we faced that day. They gave a very blur instruction on how to do stuff on the forms, somehow they thought that everyone should be ready before that which is kinda unfair, I got about 5 people from my groupies got their form rejected because of some minor mistake and I still think its unfair and biased.

Thats not all what happened, you know, it was damn boring in the hall, you cannot eat (fasting la ;p) and then, they don't even allow us to listen to our personal media player or phones, what the heck? And then one of my friend was asking some question regarding the form, then there's this fella who took the microphone and say it out loud on what my friend did, all the mistakes and such. Come on.. where's the sense of our 'budi bahasa budaya kita' that should be in our Malaysian culture? Got one time when I wasn't really listening, my friend told me got one fella use the microphone to ask us to keep quiet and stay intact, even use the word 'shut up'. Everyone started riot after that since that is considered being rude. What do you expect people to do when they don't get entertainment, talk talk and more talk lah.

So I just hope things will improve tomorrow and so on, so our children of the future won't suffer the same thing as we all suffer.

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Yeah thats what I am tonight.

You know when you joke with people sometimes, you tend to go overboard? I did it tonight, and I regret it. Because true friends don't come and go.

This time, stupidity killed the cat.

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Aww man, even vB is against me, lol database merging was hard, especially when you're clueless with it. Never mind, there's a saying, if you failed, try and try again. Just finished my 'sahur', uhh I hate eating rice early in the morning, usually I just skipped sahur but this time was different because, suddenly I was feeling hungry out of no reason. Wonder what everyone is doing at the moment, my classmates would probably be sleeping at the moment, damn someone please get online and talk to me. Being awfully lonely at the moment, and side aside the lame jokes on physic class yesterday lol. Miss Hanizah la ni punya pasal, haiyo.. Anyone get your ass online right now, theres so much to talk about *sniff*.

p/s: oh gosh... the database just wont work. i feel like crying now.


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Now playing: Lifehouse - Hanging by a Moment

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For some reason, this year's ramadhan looks promising, ooh I hope it will. So much for the plans of spending my night eating with friends yesterday when nobody replied back, it was like the last day before fasting ;_;. I skipped my first Terawikh, aww come one I'm like damn tired yesterday. Waking up early today was a torture to me especially when I slept at 4am. Didn't feel like eating also, oh well, another 8 more hour before break. Why the heck am I counting these things, I'm not feeling hungry at all lol. Oh well, happy Ramadhan everyone. *back to vB*

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Well make the great escape
We wont hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway

Boys like girls - The great escape is a nice song, but there's more to life,

You see, life isn't always just about doing the right thing, but sometimes it's also righting our wrongdoing. Yesterday night for instance, failing to do something proof to be fatal when we are depressed, I don't blame that person, I felt the same too, in fact I kinda feel worse especially when I'm stuck at the INTERFACE which is kinda sad since everyone started coding already. But then, there's a saying, don't do it when you don't feel like doing it. If everyone starts doing everything when they're on stress, most probably it won't work at all.

I think, the difficulties I've faced is because I cant get a grip on the real problem and keep thinking of a solution. Oh well, lets just forget yesterday and start again a new. I guess every once in a while, its good to start from scratch so that we can keep track of the real problem. Whats a life without a challenges anyway. But then again whats a challenges without friends side by side right? The greatest achievement is to have them to be shared with someone else.

Theres no use off thinking negatively, keep your head up and face the shine so you won't see the shadow behind. In other word, pessimist wont get anywhere, to get trough the challenges, we need to face it first. In reality, we're never alone as long as we choose not to be. Yesterday may brought the beginning, tomorrow may bring the end, but somewhere in the middle we met lots of friends.

Yet again, speaking of friends,


What are friends?

1. A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.
2. A person whom one knows; an acquaintance.
3. A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade.
4. or.. a group of people who you rather be with in times of sadness, in time of sorrow and even in time of happiness, or in time of yum-cha.
   

Need to ask more? :D

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Result may vary after you read below post.

I rarely let my mind wanders around unconsciously since I won't know where it will end up, but today I feel like writing of what I had in mind.

"I'm easily attached to someone, but I only give my heart once in a blue moon" -by someone i considered best friend.

Isn't that sounds familiar? Said by someone one year back. Oh if anyone wondered, my blog title doesn't have anything to do with the quotes =.=".

If anyone forgotten what is N case, you can always ask Art or Sins. They should know better, after all N had a crush on them really haha ;p. The only reason I wrote this off is because I stumbled upon Sins' blog where he posted about N case months back and he asked for my reply. I don't really want to open up the floodgate at once, I still can't believe after 3 rejection, she finally choose someone least expected haha. Well, both of them sepadan anyway, so I won't complain. One is a liar, one is a talam dua muka. Lol.

I still remember, she tried to avoid Sins that day, so she said she's in MP watching the cinema, late night show with her boyfriend. You know, that time, it was only 9pm, duh.. late night show at 9pm. Illogical? You tell me ;p. p/s : nasi ayam special prank was priceless.

Both of them are good a framing lol, especially the part where.. ohh I still remember the way N talks, "my boyfriend is innocent okayyy! Afiq is the one who's been badmouthing you infront of Art". You see, that was the biggest mistake she made, I wasn't in Melaka at that time, let alone to badmouth him to Art. So pecah tembelang la babeh. ;p. So if anyone wants to know the whole story, just ask me, I don't mind telling, especially after she bitched me to everyone in MMU. Oh please, keep talking, you're just making me popular lol. ;p.

Never love the one you trust before you learn to trust the one you love. -by me maybe ;p.

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Yawn.. I woke up at 10.30, damn that is like.. LATE for me. Because my average is like 8am. I feel like playing CiV4, but still waiting for Kay and Scarl to finish downloading it. I bet Zheng already finished the game itself. I think I'll skip my breakfast and lunch or brunch for short, and just take dinner today, I don't know.. I don't even feel like eating right now. *yawns* feels like sleeping back haha, *goes and open up my inspirations* Ahh.. that feels better ;D. Haha Avisha still complaint bout Ixora lame server management, I know she's addicted to maple story thats why. Too bad, for once, I thought Tmnet owns Ixora rofl. You see, how evil they are, blocking access to msn, ym and online game itself. Tsk, its Cruelty and ignoring human rights. Lol.

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Its seems that Ive been neglecting my work lately and vb dateline is coming soon. Uhuh sounds like trouble eh? I don't know, Tze Wei said that we should start next week, but seeing 3 groups has finished the whole project, ain't that like.. sounds like we're too late. Too little, too late, should I say. The problem is, while all other groups are creating a program, ours is system, which is like.. building 5 programs and all that, and I don't even have a single idea on where and what to start.

Okay okay fine! I'll try to cheer up. Although I don't know how, I caught a cold yesterday, and today I had a very bad fever but I manage NOT to skip class even though I feel tempted. Sad case lol. I shouldn't have turned off your offer of panadol just now lol. But hey at least I get to use Hanizah's line right now, 'I feel hot!'. rofl. There, cheerful enough? ;D. Yuwan, if you read this, get online.

Joanne asked me, why does I'm always feeling so down these days, well, -ive removed the post due to not really feeling like explaining what has happened 1 year ago.

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You see, i had a friend with the msn sub status "life's seems to be an uphill struggle", how i agree with that, you see, everyone has their own challenges to face, the trouble is, not everyone seems to know what kind of challenges they will face right?

Aww come on, 5 years of friendship can be destroyed in 5 seconds, what else can happen right. Worse comes to worse, I don't feel like writing anymore because I told somebody half part of the stories already, Ill let her know more later, I don't know why I suddenly remembered the incident that happened last year. Maybe because I wouldn't want to loose this friendship?

I need to get a life, pronto. Get a girl? neyh thats a bit too far lol. :D.

Thanks to someone who's being listening to my whining from 12am just now.


"dont get too attached" - yeah right, like moon is made out of green cheese advent.. and ure not really a hacker. tsk tsk. wheres my evil twin when i need him damn it. u should follow me to mmu instead of matriks T.T

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Err I mean math class. Well you see.. this is our typical math class, where mr. -dont.even.know.what.chapter- study hard. ;p, these can be considered as my good friends.. err pardon me, these is my good friends, best friends :). That guy over there is Ahmad, from Sudan, famous for his 'Balik rumah tidur' phrase when teacher ask him "Ahmad, where are you going?". Lmao don't look at me, I didn't teach him that phrase, but I did teach him something else, well thats another story. The middle one is obviously me. The girl sit right beside me is pika who is a new student from Japan, i forgot what her name was ;p, yeah see her face, she is a Japanese don't u agree? *cough* im going to get myself killed *cough*.

Okay next we have Miss Granger of MMU, yeah the one who's busy seeing the white board, she could probably be the lecturer by now.. okay as for the checkered shirt, thats Miss Granger no.2 ;p, both of them are best friends. Ohh.. last but not least thats Race, who's been racing all over MMU, pardon the pun ;p.

Okay lets talk about class, you see, the only class that I'm able to give full concentration is Comp. Apps, why? I don't know.. I found it more interesting then the others. I never hate physics and maths, I just.. err having trouble understanding them. How can you hate something you did not know right? ;p. So I'm willing to pay if someone can get me grade A- and above in both subject, I'm dying people! >.<"

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Thanks to those who fought for the independence that we gain 50 years ago, that we are able to leave prosperously and peacefully today.

So how the heck did I spend my day? Lets see, since class ended at 5 i went to the spb room to do.. what else, kacauing my favourite boss la, Lin Hui. Haha, but I wont go as far as Muharam, hes mad. So to continue the story, turns out she was learning photoshop @@", and editing the photos. I got a feeling she'll kick me out from spb after this haha.

So I went back around 5.45, bath and went back to spb room around 7 smth. Again, doing my favourite hobby. (what else people, kacau lin hui laaaa!). So since she only have one main weapon to attack me, she choose gossip, but hey, learn people! Stick and stone might break the bone, but gossip? Hah! You must be crazy. xD. You know what she was doing that time? ..studying, i mean, come on its few hours before merdeka, shes sitting there doing assignment <_<. face="trebuchet ms">So lets fast foward the story, Carmen and Yee Ling arrived around 8 and we went to MITC, aiyoh, the environment sucks big time, i mean doesn't have the feel at all, guess where we end up, dataran pahlawan! lol, Again blame missinformation ;p. Fireworks turn out to be fired at MITC, but hey, at least the atmosphere here is better you know.

Shortly after that, we went back to mmu to pick up my boss, guess what i did to make her move from the spb room? Blackmail! miahaha, im such a good worker am I? Blackmailing my own boss. So we went to Subaidah to eat. Dont let me start bout the 'dumbos' who disturb my day with my friends. Anyway, can you imagine, Meggi Goreng Udang = RM7.50, wtf, i rather eat nasi kandar penang. Ill post the picture later.


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Im in the middle of a really important conversation at the moment while typing this, thus generating the boring post. :(, I dont know, talking bout life sometimes makes someone feel down. I dont know, I admire your optimism, your knowledge, and your way of living. You're totally someone who im trying to be these past few years, no matter how hard i try, i cant seem follow the flow and end up to be someone who I do not wish to be. Life is always balanced they say, so wheres the good part? Come whatever may, because either way, Ill be here until the very end.

I don't need to name names here, because you know who you really are. Thanks for making me feel better, I guess you're really a true friend :). Life is not and easy subject, and theres only two grades, Fail and Success, while looking for your own identity, it pays to have a friend like you. :), thanks!

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See what happen when you studied too much? Well they were busy studying, I was busy disturbing them and being an ass lol. I think I did well in maths but I might flunk my physics. Sigh, come whatever may. There is no use looking back when there's a future to think off ain't it? :D.

Hmm currently I have like 2 assignment, which is Vb and Graphics, thank goodness those are my favourite subject. Ill post about merdeka night after this. :D, We had some fun, we certainly do!

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Boy, it is hard. Filled with nested if-else statement, i cant believe such small project consist of 132 lines of codes. This is scary T.T. Credits to Tze Wei for reminding me of the usage of ucase function. With all the assignment I had that is due on next week, I think ill fail physics test for sure ;_;, boy.. its going to be a loooooooooong week.

*stabs myself with a spork (fpoon + sork) eh sorry, i mean (spoon + fork)* ;D.

Now.. for the second assignment, 9 pages of Sigma stuffs. ARghhh *brain exploded*

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Currently on hiatus, too much assignment too little time.

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Talk about hectic, lets see, I've got to hand in Maths Assignment, Comp Aps, Physics and also Islamic studies assignment next week. To stir things up, I've just been appointed as Sigma Graphics Division Head. Damn, I feel the pressure <_<. Im all up for the challenges but the reason is, I fear my low level english will cause me a lot of trouble when I try to communicate with my colleagues. :(. How ler?

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Paula Deanda's song keep playing in my head for few days now. What do you expect, you'll be like this if you spend everyday hearing the song keep repeating from Carmen's playlist haha ;P. Well to tell you the truth, the song is quite addictive haha. The word of the day would probably be 'so heng' since everything kena 'so heng' by Carmen rofl.

Before 3 o'clock class, we went to the smart card center to take the smart card, turns out smart card center become not-really-a-smart card center since the staff decided to take extra hours of rest. They were suppose to come back to the room at 2.30 but heh, typical ain't it? We waited until 3 and nobody even show up. Sounds like streamyx service also right? What do you expect, they are after all under Telekom. Haha. Go figure!

We were practically camping infront of the room yet nobody turn out. Sigh, we shall see what will happen today. Damn..suddenly i feel like hearing Paula Deanda - Easy. So heng betul la Carmen! JK JK! Haha. Here's few pics that were taken yesterday.


This are some of the faces I will be spending for the whole year and probably more after foundation if god allows. So why not appreciate them now right? ^_^. Friends forever ^_^, from left, AzimoOoO, Pika! and Carmen (again comes to the point, hands off peeps, talk to her manager first!) ;P and behind them is Eros the freaking genious of pt05, well actually all of them are genius of pt05.. uh i feel out of place here ;_; .

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Thanks for the memories :D

Okay see, last night yum cha, was a memorable one. Although I did regret we didnt take pics and all that, after all it was our first night after holiday, I guess it slipped trough my mind lately. Not that because I have too much things to think off really. Lol. Carmen, Kaysha, Tze Wei and Pika were there, it was completely unplanned, well not really much ;D. Kaysha (uh how to spell your name uh friend?) and pika, turned out to be one of the MU fans in Habeeb. It was somehow hilarious with their reaction to the tv screen. She wanted to stab..uh.. nevermind Well thats another story. xD

Im just going to say, what a night. Carmen ordered roti anaconda (WTF?!), yeah that would probably be your first reaction, turns out it looked like tosei but damn long. Shesh, we are a sloppy eater yesterday, aftere finished, the table looks like its been ransacked by bandits from the north (okay i played warcraft to much lately lol) and turns out the person who ordered it only eat a portion of it. Tsk Carmen, why leh? (favourite quote xD). At 12 we went to 7eleven to buy slurpee, turns out that the machine was closed after twelve, huh pretty convenient huh? And they say 7-e opened 24 hours. Tsk, why cant a slurpee lover just get their slurpee after midnight? This is pathetic!

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